I think about those moments in my parenting role when I open my mouth and hear my mother or father come out. This occurs at times when I had hoped to live my parenting relationship differently. I was sure and certain when I was a child that I would ‘not do that’ or ‘be that way’ when I grew up. Age and experience have gone a long way to teaching me a lot more compassion for my parents!
And yet, it is hard to escape the sphere of influence encompassed in what and how I live with others. It is, I sense, an intricate aspect of what makes it hard to identify my true self and harder still to clearly identify my life’s calling. I seek my calling through my own authentic self, by be-ing who I am, by be-ing present in the world as who I am rather than as someone others want me to be. It is answering these essential questions; “Who am I? ; What is my nature?” that leads me to my true self. This is an inward journey of encounter with me and something greater than me. In this quest for the authentic self, my goal has become self-contemplation to find my purity of heart, my single-mindedness of search, my focus of life.
Everything has a nature, which informs and provides limits as well as potentials; it is part of the medium I must work with to achieve my unique potential. Be-ing in relationship with the self helps me have insight into divine inspiration within and around me. When I disconnect from that, I lose. If I live life without understanding the grace of my gifts and honoring the gifts of others, I live in danger of establishing an inauthentic life. Consciousness is the essence of this inward journeying – consciousness to the presence of the divine –of the in-dwelling presence of divine inspiration working in, with and through me.
As I navigate my relationship to my inner self, I measure it through my actions as much as any words I use. It is good in the quest for living an authentic life, to ensure that who I am connects to my daily work- and to be aware that anything that makes me the sole center of my world or inspires me to imagine that I am more than a work in progress, disconnects me from what is authentic. I become alienated from the wisdom that the origin of everything has to teach me. And conversely, when I am open to that wisdom, I recognize that it strengthens me and beckons me to be responsible for a sacred, wholesome life of be-ing all that I am able to be.
So let me begin to be in life, to be with people, to accept what is, to bring my best self to each day in ways that illuminate the potential in every precious moment.